My Newest Song

Guess what? I finished my new song! It is entitled 'suicide butterfly' and logically... it is about my mother's suicide in December. Hard stuff to work through. It is dedicated to my sisters, who give me strength.

You can listen to it on my MySpace Music or Reverbnation websites. Or you can click the widget at the bottom of this page.

This was a sung that needed to be sung, but it was profoundly difficult for me to sing. You can hear that I am crying through a couple of stanzas. And those were the best takes of the bunch. But I had some emotions that I needed to get out, and creating this song really helped me.

Sort of. I think it helped me. In some ways I felt it lifted a weight off of my heart to compose this song, and in other ways I felt that working on this song kept me mired in a very dark and terrible place.

The title is intentionally 'suicide butterfly' as opposed to 'suicidal butterfly', even though the former appears to be grammatically incorrect. This is because i wanted the name to sound like the common name for a species of butterfly.

I am working on completing another song now. This one is not exactly cheerful, but at least it is less palpably depressing. Most of the time, I listen to uptempo, cheerful music, but the music in my soul is dark and sombre. Makes sense, really.

p.s. The common name of the butterfly in the illustration, above, is the Half-Mourning Butterfly. Really.